The Lonely Boy

The lonely boy cried at nightWhile his mother gets beat 

And she thinks it’s her fault

She always thinks she’s in the wrong

He feels helpless, powerless
Such is life
The lonely boy has only friends that are imaginary or related

He’s too quiet

He’s too strange 
The lonely boy gets old enough to shave

Only to realize it doesn’t matter

Nobody ever stays

His best friend is a notebook that he scribbles every thought, every creative line

Hoping to find some sense of validation

Self-worth all the while he still holds his pen the wrong way
The lonely boy watches as his family moves away

Fearing to lose what few friends he’s gained

He stays behind
He finds and loses love often

He always thinks it’s his fault

He’s too emotional

He falls too hard

He says all the right and wrong things

At all the wrong and right times
The lonely boy has greys in his hair

Only to realize it doesn’t really matter

I’m still alone

His friends are mostly married, with children, or growing apart
Depression’s got the best of the lonely boy 

As he writes these words

Pulled over on the side of the road

Music surrounding his ears

Singing by himself

He’s always singing by himself

Because no one really knows him

And he already knows
No one ever stays

Nothing stays the same

It’s the little things that keeps him going

The lonely boy is now a man
He just wants to feel loved but he fears he asks too much

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Grey

You’re out of sight

But in my mind

Startled awake

I debate my dreams

Fact or fiction

Real or superstition 
I fall into grey

The place where things are never 

What they seem
We chase the stars

Hoping for just an ounce of joy

A moment that we can accept

A time we’ll never forget
I fall into the grey

Things are never black or white

RIP 2016

Here comes the New YearReady, aim, fire
To take away the past

The moments that’d never last

The tears that we’ve cried

The times we felt alive
Somebody once said

That these days are dead

And gone

Live for today

To hell with yesterday 
Here comes the New Year

Ready

Aim

Wildfire
Maybe this year

We’ll find out way

Maybe this time

We’ll be fine

Maybe this year

You’ll be mine
Here comes my year

Winter’s Warmth

Look at starsThey say

Follow your dreams 

they say
But my dreams

Are fleeting with the winter’s warmth
I saw a shooting star for the first time

I wished you’d still be here with me

Marveling like I did when we began
In my dreams we began

Again and again

We began

We begin
If I followed 

Like they said

If I marveled like we did
I’d set sail

I’d set sail

And never come back again

Kites

The distance

Time

Space 

Digital love

And the never ending chase
I’m a lover and a fighter

Today, yesterday, and tomorrow 

Always
I’ll wage war on war

With love trumping hate

How did we get here?

Oh, how in the hell did we get here?
We strive to forgive

But never forget

Because our scars still show

Our mirrors still broken

From that moment when I thought we’d make it
Let’s fly ourselves 

like the kites

Side by side

In the open sky 

Where the pain will never reach

Where the past can never catch us

And when we come down

We come down like the rain

And wash it all away
This is where we begin

Again 

Recycled bones

Recycle your bones
So they won’t break
Recycle your bones

So they can’t get to your heart

This time
The water speaks to me

With words so elegant 

I can’t describe 

I can’t explain
Help me assess the situation

We were so far

We’ve made it so far
I don’t want to lose this growth

For everything I once owned
I don’t want to lose this growth

Because you stole the whole damn thing

I can still feel it beating
I can make it

Just one more hill to climb

Just one more beautiful waterfall to find
Just one more time
With my recycled bones

Time Travelers 

Shame It knows our names
It knows our dreams

Our aspirations 

It shines light on the body count 

Of our hearts

Making a mausoleum right behind our very own closet door 

I travel through time

Back to the past

When I first saw your eyes

To moment I had with you last

I dream of those moments

Like a graphic novel

Wishing so badly the end would change

I wish it would change

It will always be that summer in my heart

In my dreams